Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Getting Unstuck

(Free association: Kurt Vonnegut's most famous first line...."Billy Pilgrim was unstuck in time."
I went to see the Time Traveler's Wife the other night, and it was all about Eric Bana being unstuck in time. This post is not about time traveling.)

I get paralyzed often when I sit down to work on my art. I'm not entirely sure why I sit down, get up, move supplies, rearrange, begin to clean up, sit down, get up, wander around, go away, come back, sit down, rearrange..... you get the picture. In my past lives (this lifetime, many years ago) I accomplished a lot, fearlessly. There was nothing I wouldn't tackle. Now that I have time, there is a fear of.....something....what? stopping me almost before I start. Yesterday, I just decided to do what my mother ALWAYS admonished: "Don't just sit there, DO something."
So, I tried a negative zentangle. Instead of being black ink on white, I reversed it. Remember, a zentangle is only 3 or 4 inches square. This one is 3, so the resolution is a bit vague.
I had some hand dyed fabric I love, got out the acrylic paints, took a deep breath, reminded myself "I am a good person", and went to work. Here are the results, and if I ever find out what I'm going to do with it, I'll post it. Perhaps that is why I get paralyzed....I just don't know what to do with it.

Remember the gelatin monoprinting? I still had the gelatin block (getting pretty dried up), so I spread some paint on with a brayer, and lifted the print with some muslin. What you can't see is the Jacquard Lumiere effects, which add sparkle and glitter, like a metallic sheen. A few of them turned out quite interestingly, although once again, what do I do with it?

I'm experimenting with a lot of techniques, and I guess I must exercise faith that something will come of it. Hope, hope, hope.
If you have any ideas on how to deal with paralysis, please let me know. It's a real time waster.
In the meantime, you can check out the real artists on my blog list.
Go with a happy 'art.


Baodad said...

In writing they call it "writer's block." I don't think it's exactly the same condition, but it may be related. In general life, it might be called "anxiety," the fear of doing anything.

My suggestion is to sit down with this paralysis/anxiety as your guest, and listen to what it has to teach you.

kasscho said...

Marie - I love what you're producing. Does it really matter how long it takes and what process you go through to get an expression out? We have such an on-going judgment about our "works." Just laugh. Love you, Kathy